Wednesday, February 7, 2007

India 24


WARNING : MATURE CONTENT. EXPLICIT LANGUAGE,NUDITY,SEX, VIOLENCE AND GORE.

00:00 hrs.

Pushpita put down her earphones. She put her hands behind her head and eased back into her chair. Ajay’s voice greeted her, “Hello”. Her shift was over.
She got up and smiled at him.” So? We are exchanging shifts tomorrow. Remember na”
“Ya cool. I wont mind a good nights sleep for a change”
“Good. I’ll come at 12 and take over,” , said Polly as Pushpita was known in this Convenience Call Centre. She darted down to catch the Wagon-r waiting below.

Parvati pulled at her blanket. She was shivering. Her body was burning. Doctor Babu’s medicine wasn’t doing much good. She couldn’t go to work this night. A thousand rupees at least. Lost. For missing one night. She has been missing too many nights now.

Chanda looked frustrated. She was drenched. It was pouring tonight. She was sheltered under the borch of a house. No body else seemed to be around except the coat-suit Babu. He seemed as frustrated as her. And her presence seemed to make him nervous.

Chanda adjusted her Pallu to reveal her midriff and cleavage. She was wearing a red sari with a blue and pink flowery blouse. The wet blouse stuck to her breasts proudly showing them off, its back was bare and its chestline dangerously low revealing her cleavage as well. She had worn the sari much below low as well exposing her deep navel. Her make up was loud. Deep red lipstick, dark mascara, and an overdose of rouge on her cheeks. But this was all part of the job.

She approached the coat-suit babu. He stiffened as she neared. Chanda didn’t care. In a husky voice she asked “Sahab, chalta hain kya?”


1 AM.

Amit stared at Maya. She looked beautiful when she was asleep. Then he looked at his baby. He looked beautiful too. With his mouth open. His button nose and tiny hands held in a fist. Amit looked at Maya again. He loved her for being his wife. He love her for being the mother of his child. He gently kissed her forehead. Maya opened her eyes. smiled. And pulled Amit into a kiss. On the lips.

Chaitali was flabbergasted. Mom and Mitali were crying again. This had become a regular practice since the past two weeks. It was Mitali’s wedding tonight and her tears were at their extereme highest.
“Didi. Will you please stop! I need a little sleep here.”, Chaitali yelled. She had been working hard these days, due to the wedding, and she was tired. And she couldnot understand what was on Mitali’s mind. She had always wanted to get married to a “Good” groom. Debopam worked at Microsoft, LA and earned a six figure salary.
But still mother and daughter cried. “When you will get married , you will cry too.” replied her mother. Mitali didn’t say anything. She continued crying.

“Look, I am not the kind of person you think I am.. My car has broken down and I am stranded here. I have no desire to be at this place at this hour of the night. And I have definitely no desire of going with…you. Please, please, please leave me alone.” , yelled Rahul to Chanda. Chanda turned away her head mumbling, “Nalla saala, kahan kahan se aa jate hae gaand uthake!”

Archie and Veronica were sitting on the beach. Archie was in his trunks. Veronica was taking off her clothes. Archie who was suddenly looking like Salman Khan stared in awe as Veronica pulled off her dress to reveal a two piece bikkini. Archie pulled her towards his arms. Veronica suddenly looked like Piyali from Ronnie’s school. Both were fourteen years old. Ronnie was now sitting with her in place of Archie. He had his hands around her back trying to untie the strings.

Chanda turned away her head mumbling, “Nalla saala, kahan kahan se aa jate hae gaand uthake!”. “Perfect!” yelled Vishubhai, “Cut”. He was directing the Movie. “One Night in the Rain”. “Wonderful Rupa! WONDERFUL. This was what I was looking for!”
Rupa Lahiri heaved a sigh of relief. At last after fifteen takes the shot was OK. Vishu wasn’t liking the way she was mouthing the line…”Nalla saala…”. At last he was pleased. Rupa was annoyed with Atul. He was playing Rahul, her hero in this film. He only acted in these “Arthouse” films which he termed different. And he was getting frustrated because of the many takes. His attitude irritated her. She was the STAR, doing this film for less than half-cost, and taking this big risk of playing a prostitute. If anyone had the right to get annoyed it was her - Rupa Lahiri.

Piyali was without her top now. But she was Rupa Lahiri now, the newest STAR of Bollywood. She was sitting there, her breasts exposed, Ronnie ,who looked much muscular than he usually was, running his hands around her body. Kissing her. He was’nt sure why he was liking this so much. Rupa put her hands on his chest now and slowly descended - to his abs…down…down. Ronnie felt wet suddenly. He opened his eyes. Everything was dark. He’d again peed in bed.


2 AM


“Hello. Welcome to Convenience Sir. This is Jay. How may I help you, Mr. Anderson.”

“You fucking well do ,you bloody ass Asian!!!! I WANT you to fix my cleaner, RIGHT NOW!!! Or I will bloody screw your native ass!!!”

Ajay closed his eyes and drew a deep breath. Hearing racist insults in foreign accents. This was what he was paid for. “I’ll try my best Sir. But could you please tell me first what exactly your Problem is?” , he replied in the most polite voice he could manage.

Ronnie had no idea what the problem was. He had strated peeing in his bed again. He used to pee in bed till he was five years old. But then it had stopped. And now- it had started again. He was flushed in embarssment. Who could he tell about his problem.
He put his hands inside his underwear. Why was his piss sticky!!! This was happening for some months now. Something was changing in him. He was having these weird dreams, very often. Wherein he will see himself, more handsome than he actually was or sometimes someone else and some girl - fictional character or from his school or maybe some Heroine….getting naked in front of each other and kissing or caressing each other. What was more he was enjoying these dreams immensely. He looked forward to them. And then he had this problem - whenever he saw these dreams he peed his pants. He wasn’t sure if it was pee! Was it something else? He wondered what to do. O yes. He got up and went into the toilet. He had to clean himself , at least.

3 AM

Arindam woke up from his sleep. He looked at the alarm-clock near his bed. The last time he had looked at it it was 2. Nowadays if he could sleep for an hour at a stretch, he felt relaxed. He didn’t remember what woke him up. If it was any nightmare - it wouldn’t make any difference to him. Twenty four hours of his life was a nightmare now. A dream - it couldn’t be- all his dreams were lost, when he failed to get 2nd division in the HS - last year.
He lay still in his bed. He never thought of any naked heroines, the political scenario of the country didn’t affect him, even the miseries of his family didn’t touch him now - it seemed as if he was without any emotion. He just lay in his bed…waiting…waiting for sleep to come, waiting for the next day to arrive - waiting for what happened everyday - his father’s insults, his mother's tears, the sweat in the local train, the sun over Parkstreet, the 20p coffee at BSNL office and the rejection from every employer in the town.

Dominic looked out of the window…he cudnt see anything in the foggy night. He looked at his watch. Another two hours to reach Calcutta. Debopam’s brother would be there to receive him. Deb was his best buddy. It was his marriage. Never in his life had he imagined that he would fly thousands of miles over the Atlantic to attend the wedding of an Indian whom he knew for less than two years. Life leads you to places you never imagine. Dominic smiled.

4 AM

“Wake up. Wake up…”, yelled Mr Sircar, shaking his sleeping wife. Mrs Sircar rubbed her eyes and looked at her husband lazily.
“Whats is it Subroto?”, she asked. Women of her times never called their husbands by their first names. But she did.
“Come come.”. He said as he almost hauled her from bed and pulled her up the stairs in naked feet, to the roof.
At the door of the roof, Mr Sircar stopped.”Leela close your eyes.”
Mrs Sircar closed her eyes, unquestionably. She heard the roof door creak. She followed her husband into the roof. The scent of blooming Shiulis came floating in the morning breeze. Her wrinkled body underneath her thin nightsuit shivered in the morning chill. Motioned by her husband, she made her way to the railing of the roof.
“Leela,” whispered Mr Sircar, embracing her shoulders, sniffing the coconut oil from her hair. “Open your eyes.”
A red streak was appearing beyond the Second Hugli Bridge, like a roseprick on a finger. Mrs Sircar looked at her husband, her eyes smiling. Mr Sircar clasped her hands and kissed her gently on her lips. She giggled, as she had done 50 years ago, when Subroto had first kissed her on the way home from College.

5 AM

Mr Jalal impatiently clicked buttons on his mobile. He had been trying to reach his son in Bhubaneshwar for quite sometime. But it was not connecting. This time it did however.

“Ya Baba, I am in the station. The Train’s on time for a change..don’t worry I’ll give u a call when I reach Cal. No need to come.”

“What will I do at home, Salim? I’ll be at the station.”

Lakshmi found the door of her house open. Gour was lying on the bed naked, drunk - bottles of liquor strewn on the floor. It was his daily routine. Helplessly gaze at the sexy gori Madams he drove to Convenience at wee hours of the night, then go to Kalighat to satisfy his libido, get drunk , come home and fall asleep - at least till Lakshmi got home.

6 AM

Dominic had never seen so many people before. He had heard India was crowded , but so early in the morning the streets or the airport had not seemed like that to him. Only they were dirty and bumpy, but he had expected that. Debopam’s brother Anupam had received him at the airport. Here at Debopam’s home Dominic understood what the word “crowd” meant. There were men and women of all physical denominations possible and all were in awe of him. Dominic felt he was being stripped naked with innumerable penetrating eyes. And then there was Debopam. He came over and hugged him.

“Dom, meet my family. Guys this is Dominic – my best friend.”

Rupa Lahiri came out of her car and went to her room. She flopped on her bed exhausted. She walked into the bathroom and got into the tub.She ran the hot water and let her body soak it in. Malini , her assistant entered with a tray of starch-less diet biscuits and orange-juice. She made a face while chewing on the tasteless biscuits. Then she drank the orange juice in one gulp.
“Why the fuck do they have to have whole-night shoots Mali…. Cant they shoot during the day.”
Malini considered telling her that the film was named “One Night in the Rain.” But then decided against it. As she was leaving, she heard her mistress’s plea – “O Mallu, please, please, please I wanna have Tandoori Chicken. I’ll have one small portion promise. Cant I have one please.”

7 AM

Dominic still didn’t know what a real crowd was. If he would have wanted to know he should have got into the train with Arindam. Even in this early morning,this Pashkura Local was stinking with the stench of too many people. But Arindam was used to all this. At the beginning of this year, he used to be bothered by the sweat of peole staining his shirt, irritated by the irrelevant bickering of people standing on one feet about Dada and Chappel, turned on by the sudden touch of an auntie’s voluptuous butt on his crotch. But now, he was used to all this. Like an ancient yogi, he was now a master at standing on one feet in a swinging locomotive and freeing his mind of every thought. Nirvana was not that tough always.

Salim hated his job. He wanted to be a novelist. The white collard job, the meetings, the managers, the code snippets, the corporate way – he suffocated in the place. He wanted freedom. He wanted romance. He wanted adventure. He wanted to be a Hero. Or at least write a novel about the Hero - a novel that will transform people, inspire people and invigorate people. The train was taking up a gentle rhythm. The morning breeze was gentle on his face. His dream made him happy. Salim fell into a slight slumber.

8 AM

Mr and Mrs Sircar fought over the newspaper as they had the morning tea. Mr. Jalal added a little oil to the chicken stew he was preparing for his son. Arindam still stood on one leg in the train. Ajay came out of Convenience and mounted his bike. He raced home. He had to do Pushpita’s shift today at 4.

Ronnie sat inattentive in the classroom. He was glum today. Piyali hadn’t come today. It was her Didi’s marriage and she was on leave for 3 days. Ronnie was invited to the wedding. At night – 8’oclok. That was 12 hrs from now. Ronnie remembered his dream last night. In which Piyali was there with him. He imagined her again. Would she do those things with him??? His penis was straining against his pants. He rubbed it against the desk. It felt great.

9 AM

Dominic closely watched the ritual. It was called “Gaye Holud”. Debopam sat wearing a white loin cloth. A Priest chanted some gibberish, and the elder women rubbed turmeric paste mixed with oil on Debopam’s body and face. It was exotic. Sensing Dominic’s interest, Anupam’s wife came close and asked… “What Dom? Want a taste of it yourself?” Saying this she rubbed the paste on his cheeks and forehead. It felt strangely pleasant.

Mitali was also having her Gaye Holud. Everybody was busy rubbing her with Turmeric and generally pampering her. Piyali was rubbing Turmeric on her own cheeks. Only Chaitali was uninterested. She was restless. She was waiting for Partha. Could her asshole of a cousin not be on time even on Didi’s marriage.

10 AM

Salim was up and awake. And lost in his thoughts. Who was a Hero he mused. Obviously he was the main protagonist to the story. But what was he like? A Hero was often – someone who was not satisfied with where he was – someone who always searched for a better road, a better destination. It is the Hero’s restlessness that drives the story forwards. A hero is one who sets on a journey. Of self discovery. Sometimes he gets frightened and decides to turn back. But then he doesn’t. A Hero is one who continues with fortitude. He faces temptations on his path, and sometimes he gives in to them. But ultimately he wins over them. A Hero is one who triumphs. And He is the one who finds – the truth, the treausure or his true love. And a Hero is one who returns – at the end of the story – The Master of Both Worlds - balancing light with darkness, passion with wisdom, weakness with strength.

Gour was still not up. Lakshmi was busy with her household chores. It was just not fair. Lakshmi came home later than Gour, earned almost as much as him and still had to wait on him night and day. Plus his drinking and those witches of Kalighat. Lakshmi felt furious about Gour fucking them prostitutes, and afraid that he might pass of some disease to her. But she was more afraid to say anything. Gour was 6 ft 10. and he struck with broken liquor bottles when he was angry.

Partha was here at last. He was sweaty and dirty, his hair was in a mess. And in his unshaved face he held that same roguish smile that could make Chaitali’s heart race like a horse in Maidan. He looked at her with those mischieveous eyes and it said all. He was sorry to be late, he had missed her a lot and he would make it up to her.

11 AM

Partha was in the bathroom. Chaitali went upstairs to give him the towels.

“Open up the door scumbag!” she shouted.

“Scumbag you!” he retorted and pulled her in.

He was stark naked and shameless. He pulled her into a kiss, inserting his tongue in her mouth.

“What are you doing you bastard. Get covered for chrissake”

“Don’t say you don’t like my cock.” And he pulled down her blouse and stared sucking on her breasts.

Chaitali loved it but she liked teasing.”Leave me you perv. I am you sister.”

“Sister my foot. Aunt’s husband’s sister’s daughter. That way Cindy Crawford’s my sister too.”

“Fuck you.”

“Yes please”

“No!”

“But you promised.”

“Ok…. But not now. Anybody can come.”

“Then when?”

“Later!” And she slipped out of the bathroom. Then she stopped, turned back and gave him one quick wet kiss, and said “4 pm. Attic. Meet me.” And she darted down.

12 Noon

Dominic sat in his room. Even in all this crowd Debopam’s family had managed to get him a room of his own. He sat on the bed in his shorts. The Churidar suit bought for him by Debopam lay beside him. He looked at his knees. He felt tears swelling in his eyes. He wanted to stop but he felt a drop on his palm. And then the door flung open and Debopam entered.

He bolted the door behind him.

Rupa Lahiri sat at the dining table. The Tandoor-i-Chicken in front of her. She reached for the fork and the stopped. It had butter. Butter was evil. She drew her hand back.

Debopam knelt down before his friend. He looked up at Dom and tried to speak. But he couldn’t He started crying like a helpless child holding tight onto his friend’s thighs. “ I am sorry Dom! I am so sorry.” He mumbled through his tears. “My parents…they would never understand… I can’t …I can’t hurt them.”

Rupa stared at the Chicken longingly. How much butter could have gone into that. How much calories???? She would just have one piece. She took up the fork and proceeded to dig it in. But what about the Masala???

Dom took his friend up in his arms, and hugged him to his chest and then he too started crying. Both men sat together like that in a tight embrace wetting in each others tears. Finally Dom looked in his friend’s eyes and said “We can still be friends.”

But Deb leaned forward and kissed his lips. Dom tried to resist. They shouldn’t do this now… but he couldn’t. They sucked on each other’s lips, tears still flowing from their eyes, bodies quivering in pain and passion.

No Rupa Lahiri couldn’t do this. She couldn’t spoil her 22” waist for this piece of Tandoori-Chicken. She pushed the tray away and got up. “No Mali. I cant do this to me.” Malini was exasperated. What to do with this Chicken now. She was a vegetarian.


1 PM

Mr. Jalal tugged the book under his arms and stepped out of Oxford. Its was KM ganguli’s Mahabharata. Salim loved the Mahabharata. He would love this. He still had an hour to reach Howrah. He stepped off the footpath into the street. But suddenly he couldn’t move. His shoes were stuck to the road. The wet molten tar caught his feet. He struggled to free himself but it held him firm. And then he saw the bus rushing towards him. He let out a scream in horror. He didn’t want to die. He had to receive Salim at the Station.

And then he suddenly felt a violent shove on his back. Someone pushed him with all his might out of the bus’s way. He stumbled forward , flying through the air, landing near the middle of the road on his knees. His head fell forward striking the railings of the divider. He felt hot blood coming down his face. His vision blurred rapidly and the world faded out of existence.

Arindam lay partly on the street in a gruesome mass of flesh, blood and bone, while parts of him still hung on to the tiers of the bus as it tried rushed away into oblivion before the crowd caught it and burnt it to ashes.

2 PM

Salim’s train was on time. But his father was not there. He was perplexed. He was not even answering the mobile. Where was he? He was feeling nervous. What should he do.

It was almost an hour now…but still his Dad wasn’t here. He decided to go home and see.

3 PM

His house was locked. He asked the Sircar’s upstairs and they had no idea where his father was. He kept his bags with them and started for the police station. And then his mobile rang.

“Is this Mr Salim? Do you know Mr Abdul Jalal? He has had a accident. Could you please come to the Phoenix General Hospital? No no don’t worry…he is fine now.”

4 PM

Partha tiptoed upstairs to the attic. He didn’t know why..but he felt nervous. Chaitali was waiting at the door. She was sweating in anticipation. Partha just stared at her agape. He felt she was the most beautiful girl in this universe. Chaitali pulled him in her arms and planted and kiss on his mouth. Partha sucked in the sweetness of her lips. He had kissed her before but each time he kissed her it seemed like the best.

Partha was always the dominant one. But today he felt content letting Chaitali take her sweet time. She took of her salwar kameez, her brassiere, her pink flowery panties. This was the first time he was seeing her completely naked. He was frozen. Her breasts were a bit saggy, there was a little hair on her tummy which she’d forgotten to wax and her butt was a wee bit fat. But Partha felt she was perfect.

He took of his shirt and pulled down his pants. Instead of jumping on her as he had originally meant to, he reached out his hand and touched her delicately. He traced his fingers down Chaitali’s frame – from her shoulders, down her breasts, to her nave, down her cunt, to her butt. Chaitali shivered at his touch. Partha pulled her towards his body and squeezed her buttocks. Chaitali put her hands on his chest, down his abs and then touched his penis. It quivered at her touch. Partha pulled her in a tighter embrace.

He laid her on the floor and started kissing her all over. He pecked her eyes, sucked her lips, tongued her neck, licked her nipples, lipped her nave. He parted her legs and kissed her hood. He put down his head between her legs and sank his tongue into her cup. Chaitali silenced her scream of pleasure with her hands. Her legs coiled in a passionate embrace on Partha’s shoulder.

Chaitali wondered what would happen if somebody suddenly came upstairs and caught them. It exalted her passion. Both of them were soaked in sweat and saliva. Partha’s member throbbed in restless vigor, precum oozing form its tip. He took out a condom from his trouser pocket. He had come prepared. So had she. She spread her legs wide opening herself up for him, ready to take the final plunge. He entered in her like a flaming spear and pumped fire into her veins. She came in waves of passion and drowned him in oceans of joy. Then she rode him like a bucking stallion, dancing in a frantic rhythm until he erupted like a volcano in sheathes of elastic. The Universe started in a Big Bang and died in a silent whimper. They lay naked and spent in each others arms.


5 PM

Debopam dressed his friend in the Chruidar he had spent 4 weeks to buy. He looked at the handsome blonde man dressed in blue and gold. “You look beautiful”, he said.

Mitali looked gorgeous in the red banarasi. Chaitali hugged her to her heart and kissed her cheeks. She was happy now. She had beaten Didi in the final game. Mitali was still a virgin.

6 PM

Salim stared at the assembled bodyparts of the 18 year old boy who had saved his father’s life. His family still waited to have his body or rather what was left of it, which was still under the supervision of the Police and the Post-mortem people. And then he remembered that he had forgoteen the most important thing about Heroes. Heroes were self sacrificing people who abandoned their needs over those of others. And that heroes were born of circumstances. Extraordinary circumstances which made heroes out of ordinary people. And that every person had a hero in him waiting for the opportunity to come out and save the day.

7 PM

There was music. There were drums. There were lights. And people danced on the street. Dominic had never seen something like this before. He wanted to go out and dance. But Debopam held his hand. They sat side by side in the car adorned with flowers. In India, a man’s carriage is adorned with flowers twice in his life – once when he goes to marry and also when he goes to his pyre. Debopam prepared for his pyre…

8 PM

Parvati watched the marriage procession from some distance. She had been married once too. But now she got married every night. Her fever was at a low tonight. So here she was in the lanes of Kalighat hunting for a husband for the night.

These marriages were not so different from her profession she mused. The guy chose the girl who was the most beautiful. The girl chose the guy who had the maximum money. And then it was just a game of sex and money – plain and simple. Prostitution was on a day-to-day basis. Marriage was a one-time deal.

The groom was good looking, and he had a foreigner friend. And then she saw him. Among the groom’s people was this smiling and dancing couple…and on the man’s arm was her child. Shonamoni. She forgot what she was and wanted to rush to him and take him in her arms. But no. She stopped herself. There’s nothing more stronger than a Mother’s heart. It was all for his own good. Shona had a future with these people. And she had gone to great lengths to secure that future. That bastard Gour’s wife worked at the hospital.

Amit danced with his son in his lap. Little Amart was enjoying too. Maya felt her insides would burst in joy. She loved Amit. She loved Amart. She loved Amit for giving her her child. She loved Amart for being their flesh, blood and soul.

9 PM

Everyone was here now. Amit and Maya with their son. Mr and Mrs Sircar from next door. Piyali’s school friends. Mitali’s friends – Anuva, Amrita and Pushpita. The night had just started to grow young.

Debopam and Mitali sat before the sacred fire taking the sacred vow. Dominic stared listlessly at his friend – the love of his life who would be no longer his. Pushpita, Anuva and Amrita stared capriciously at blone foreigner from LA. Ronnie stared at Piyali and Chaitali stared back too. Ronnie felt she had been waiting for him all this day. Piyali wondered what was wrong with Ronnie.He was acting weird. Mr and Mrs Sircar stared at each other remembering fond memories of the past. Amit and Maya stared at each other and little Amart, content with their present. Chaitali and Partha stood at the back, touching each others hand, carelessly oblivious to an uncertain future.

The Priest hummed Vedic Mantras

Jadastu hridayam tava tadastu hridyam mama


10 PM

The Marriage Ceremony was going on in full swing. But Mr and Mrs Sircar returned home. They were aging now and got tired easily. They changed into their nightsuits and flooped on the bed exhausted. They talked about the marriage, how Mitali and Debopam looked beautiful together, they talked about the foreigner lad…he was cute- not as much as Mr Sircar in his youth but still cute. Then they talked about Mr Jalal’s accident. Salim had informed them over the phone. And about the boy who had saved him. They talked about fate, destiny and life. And then slowly sleep descended on their eyes. Mr Sircar was the first to fall asleep. Mrs Sircar stayed awake a little more. She looked at her husband. She still loved him the way she did 50 years ago. She wondered what love was. Some said it was Passion. Some said it was Devotion. Some said it was Commitment. Some said it was Compromise. She felt it was the ability to talk to each other for hours on end without feeling bored for a second. She looked at Subroto sleeping peacefully. She placed her hand in his palm and closed her eyes. She felt a pang in her heart…will she open her yes again to see a glimpse of him? Will he sill be there when she opened her eyes tomorrow? She shivered at the thought. She didn’t like to think about that. She lived in the present and her past was enough for her future. She drifted into sleep moments later.

11 PM

Pushpita’s Wagon-R arrived in time. She didn’t feel like going. Leaving the party – especially this guy Dom. He was sooooo sexy. But he had to go. Ajay had called her.
She bade farewell to Mitali and Debopam. To Auntie and Uncle. And then she said good-bye to Dom. “Be in touch.” She blurted out. “Can I have your mail_id?” She couldn’t believe she had just sid that. Dom smiled and said Deb had his id. Shit! How could she be so despo.

She didn’t know this driver. Well she didn’t do this shift. And she was the first to be picked. She spread out comfortably in the back seat. Dom was hot.

Gour stared at the fair ma’am at the back seat. Slut! What did these girls do all throughout the night? With all this make-up? He was a bit drunk tonight. The girl looked horny. He took a u-turn.

“Why are you taking this turn? ”

“It’s a shortcut.”

Pushpita rested her head on the headstand and tried to sleep. She couldn’t help thinking about Dominic. What was happening to her. Was she in love? The car suddenly stopped with a jerk

“What happened?”

“Dunno. Engine problem ” The guy got out and opened the bonnet. Pushpita got out too for a wisp of the midnight breeze. Pushpita called Mitali. “Kire? Ki korchis?”

Gour stared at the girl. Her breasts were huge. And she laughed like a bitch.

“I know you were going gaga over Dominic, you silly.” Mitali spoke from the other side. “Pity Anuva and Amrita are having all the fun.”

“Shut up Stupid. Its nothing like that.” She cut off the phone. “Ki! tomar holo?”, she asked the driver and then she looked at his face. He was staring at her like a ghoul, his eyes cold and gleaming. She felt her legs give in.

“What do you want?” She retreated. The Man advanced toward her. She threw her purse towards him and started running. But he pounced on her and pounded her to the ground. She tried to struggle hitting and kicking but a tight slap on her face ended her strength. She felt her lips part open and blood come out. She felt her blouse being ripped open and her sari being torn. Tears came down her eyes, scream from her mouth. The man silenced her scream with his mouth on hers. Not a smooch , not a kiss, it felt like he will swallow her whole. He pulled her hair, twisted her neck when she refused to respond. He took out his cock and put it in her mouth. He banged her head on the hard ground. He called her names she had never heard before. She stared in shock, still not believeing what was happening to her. He fucked her mouth and came over her face. He stripped her petticoat and violated her cunt. He broke her hymen with one thrust of his crotch. Her virgin blood came out in torrents. He pounded his blood-stained cock mercilessly ravaging her wound. She lay there like a senseless corpse, unable now even to scream. He released his seed in her open cunt. His libido satisfied he ultimately got up. He stripped off every piece of clothing from her body.He put her torn clothes and ornaments inside the car and stood over her naked body. He kicked her with his boots and spit on her face already gooed with his cum. Then he held out his penis and let out a stream of piss completing the humiliation. Content with himself, he got into the car and drove away leaving her torn, lying naked and cold on the ground, the darkness unable to cover her shame.

00 Hrs

It was 12 now. But nobody was sleeping. Debopam and Mitali’s parents and uncles and aunts and cousins and friends – the whole lot of them were wide awake – eating, singing, dancing and teasing the newly wed couple – Chaitali and Partha danced to the tunes of Chunari Chunari and everybody clapped. Dominique danced too. He was the object of special attraction to everybody in the house, especially the beautiful girls. The mantras of the marriage were still ringing in his ears –

Jadastu hridayam tava tadastu hridyama mama
– Where your heart lies, there my heart lies too.

He stared at Debopam. He knew he was married forever.

Salim sat beside his father on the hospital bed, clasping his hand. Mr Jalal was sleeping peacefully now. As he kissed the old man’s forehead, he felt few drops of tears in his eyes. He remembered the time when he had got the news of the accident, and now he was here. He didn’t know what he would have done if his father had not lived. And then his thoughts wandered back to his musings over “The Hero”. But he didn’t stop at that. He took up the pad from the bedside table, took out his pen and started scribbling.

Arindam was on a bed too. Today his sleep will not be broken. He won’t wake again to his mothers tears, fathers insults and the endless lanes of esplanade. He had found peace at last.

Pushpita lay on the road,her clothes torn, blood still flowing through her vagina. She couldn’t move, her whole body was hurting. But that was nothing compared to the wound inside. She felt that there was nothing left in her life. She will never have a respectable life agin. She will not be married, every body will point to her. But she didn’t want to die tonight. She wanted to live. And she cried out , “Help! Somebody help!”

Ajay put the earphones on again. It was that bastard Anderson .

“Son of a whore, Will you fix my problem or not, you fucking native bitch.” Ajay did what he always did. Closed his eyes, bit his lip and then said in the most polite voice. “Sir, will you please tell me what your exact problem is?”



Saturday, January 20, 2007

Tango in the Rain(Poem)


Tango in the Rain…


Girl, do you remember that night?
We had gone to the mountains for a date –
I made a table out of a rock
And set food on banana-leaf plates.
You looked so lovely in that white dress,
That the moon itself turned a jealous shade of green
It suddenly started pouring so hard –
And we did a small tango in the rain.
The cream and the caviar was spoilt
But still they tasted sweet enough.
And then I went down and sang you a song.
You couldn’t help smiling all along.
The winter chill was running down my spine
But the heat of your body kept me warm.
I could feel your breath come out in steam
And our hearts beat in unison.
But when I stooped to kiss you on your lips-
You stopped me with a nod of your head.
I felt a crack in your voice as you said
Your heart belonged to someone else instead!
No night was ever darker than that one.
The raindrops hid the tears that I cried.
I still managed to crack a joke or two
But I remember how much I bled inside.

Now that I see you after so long -
So many many things have now changed.
Tell me how life has been to you?
You look the same but you seem so estranged.
The glow of your face is gone,
And the light of your eyes have dimmed,
Your smile hides an awful lot of pain,
Have you lost all that you ever dreamed?
Life hasn’t been so easy for me too -
I have grown up so much so since then;
I don’t give away my heart so fast
I don’t give away my heart at all, even.
But now that I look onto your face –
I want to fall in love once again -
I want to have you close to me once more,
I don’t want this moment to ever end.
No December downpour tonight,
But our hearts showers down in pain.
Would you come and have a dance with me?
We can do a tango in the rain..!

Friday, January 19, 2007

The Unfiathful : Script

The Unfaithful





INT PREM’S HOUSE NIGHT

CLOSE UP on the face of a man. He has a very sincere face. Has glasses. About 30. Though quite good-looking he has a geeky quality to his face. Slowly camera pulls out to show his full form. He is naked from waist up revealing a rather naturally well-built torso. Sitting at a table taking some notes from a thick book. The book contains figures suggesting it to be of astrophysics, quantum mechanics or some sort of advanced science. A shoveled up bed is seen in the background. A girl is in the bed but only her naked legs are visible initially. Slowly the camera moves past the man’s shoulders and slowly closes in on the girl. She is about 19,out and out sexy, in a red lingerie. He hair is dyed blond. Her face is beautiful , has a red lipstick on. There’s a half-disappointed look on her face.

GIRL
Are we to spend the night like this . . .(with sarcasm) Mr. Chaterjee.

MR. CHATERJEE
No.

Shuts the book. Puts down his pen. Looks at the girl.

MR. CHATERJEE (contd.)
And you can call me Prem.

Gets up.

PREM
Your dad’s a rich man aint he? Alisa. Is that your real name.

ALISA
Yeah ! For the first one. And for the second that’s none of your business.

PREM
Sits down on the bed.
Right. But why do you do this stuff. You get enough pocket money I suppose.

ALISA
I lost all on a bet earlier this month. And next week, its my best friend’s birthday.

Prem crawls up beside Alisa. Undecidedly they touch each other a little.They try to kiss a little but it just does not work out. Suddenly Prem’s eyes falls on a photoframe on the bed-stand. The camera closes in on the photograph. Prem gazes at it with nostalgia. Alisa looks at it. The Camera close in onto the camera. A boy - clearly Prem himself but younger about 20- and a girl is sitting on a horizontal branch of a tree in a green lawn. A big building apparently of a college/school is seen in the back ground.

ALISA (o.s.)
Who’s that? Your wife .

PREM (o.s.)
Yes.( A short pause)… (With a lot of emotion) Riya.

The Camera closes more and more on the photograph until the scene changes to that in the photograph.


EXT. PREM AND RIYA’S COLLEGE CAMPUS DAY

The boy and the girl in the picture sitting on the branch of the tree. The boy has the same sincere yet nerdy face with the same glasses. He’s Prem only younger. About twenty. He’s in jeans and a shirt. The girl beside him is in a boys’ jeans and tee-shirt. She has very short and curly hair and a very naughty and restless face. If not for her sexy feminine features she could have been mistaken for a boy. She puts her arms round Prem and kisses on his cheek.

RIYA
Happy friendship day Puppy.

Hands him an audio cassette. It is the track of Friends.

PREM
Wow.Happy friendship day.

Kisses Riya. Hands her a card. And takes out a friendship band from his pocket and ties it on her hand. Riya is delighted . She gives a sweet smile and they kiss on the lips. (Not a mouth-to-mouth French kiss- a friendly kiss.)
A voice is heard.

VOICE(o.s.)
Hey lovebirds look here.

RIYA(smiling)
We are not lovebirds. We are twins. Like Peas-an’-Carrots (imitating Tom Hank’s style in Forrest Gump).

They look into the camera. SNAP. A photograph is taken. The pose is same as that in the photograph in the first sceene.


INT. COLLEGE AUDITORIUM. DAY GRADUATION DAY CEREMONIES

Many students have gathered . All in black graduation day suits. We can see both Prem and Riya but they are in different groups. An announcer is calling out the names of the graduates in the different streams. Students are going up on the stage for their certificates.

ANNOUNCER
And now for the three toppers. In the field of commerce Mr Anandaroop Bagchi. 1st Class 1st . Congratulations Anadaroop.

A boy walks up on stage to receive the certuficate.

ANNOUNCER
For humanities Riya Dasgupta. 1st class 1st with record marks in Political Sciences. Bravo Riya.

Riya walks up on the stage and receives her certuficate.

ANNOUNCER
And for Science. Prem Chatterjee. 1st class 1st with record marks in Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics and Astrophysics. Cogratulations.

Prem receives his certuficate. As he climbs down the stage he is pulled into an ecstatic hug by Riya. Smiling he takes her in his arms and kisses her deeply on the mouth. She returns the kiss and it goes on and on amidst a chorus of boos ,whistles and claps.


INT. MARRIAGE REGISTRATION OFFICE DAY

Prem and Riya –both looking a little older- sign on the marriage registrar. Prem is clad in a white designer Punjabi and Dhoti, Riya in a Benarasi Saree. Both look good but rather odd and uncomfortable. Especially Riya. She isn’t able to manage herself. The Pallu keeps falling from her head. Four other people are standing in the back. An older man in a suit. With a little grey hairs and a moustache. His face and mannerisms indicates his rather high social status and also his mediocrity. Beside him a simple looking woman in a coloured saree. The couples closeness indicates they are man and wife. On their right is a boy about 18 or 19. He is holding a pair of garlands. To the left of the couple a little removed from them stands another woman in a white saree indicating she is a widow. She has a conservative and strong-willed look on her face. She doesn’t seem very happy with the whole thing. One by one the older man and the two women sign on the registrar.

THE REGISRATION OFFICER
Now you are man and wife. If you’d like to proceed with other rituals.

The woman in the coloured saree hands Prem a small container of Sindur which he puts on Riya’s forehead. Then they exchange garlands. After that Riya hugs the older gentleman and the woman in coloured saree. They hug her tightly as if bidding goodbye. Both of them have tears in their eyes. Then Riya hugs the young boy. He breaks down saying ‘Didi’.( This indicates the couple is Riya’s mom and the boy her brother.)

WOMAN IN COLOURED SAREE(RIYA’S MOM)
Now take your mom-in-law’s blessing.

Riya and Prem bow down to the other woman, who is Prem’s mom. Her coldness suddenly changes to that of love and gentleness. She picks Riya up , kisses her bow and hugs her. Then suddenly she notices Riya’s short hair. The coldness comes back to her and she becomes more rigid.

INT PREM’S HOUSE DAY

Prem’s mom is packing Prem’s clothes in a suit case. Prem is standing near the bed. She has a very angry look on her face.
PREM’S MOM
I don’t understand. You married just yesterday. And today you are going away. To U.S. And she’s flying to Delhi. Is this a marriage.

PREM
Give it a break Ma. We’ve discussed this earlier. Two years is nothing. I have been called to address a seminar on astrophysics. She has been summoned on her first major job. We have our careers. I wanna teach, research. She’s a journalist, loves adventure. If we want to get married we have to do in this way. We can’t expect to spend all our time together. The sooner we get used to it the better.

PREM’S MOM
Why did you marry her in the first place. I could have got you a decent wife who’d would have cooked for you, and looked after you and gone with you anywhere.

Suddenly Riya pops in. She’s in her usual jeans and jacket.

RIYA
We’re getting late.

She departs.

PREM’S MOM
Is that a way for a bou to dress. Why DID you marry that girl. She doesn’t even look like one.

PREM (hurt and angry)
Ma!


INT AIRPORT WAITING ROOM AFTERNOON

A no of people is sitting. Chiefly a Sikh family consisting of Granpas and Grannys and Mummys and Daddies and Uncles and Aunts and kids. The only people other than them are Prem nd Riya who are sitting uncomfortably in one corner trying to get as much closeness possible under the close inspection of a hugely curius Sikh family.
Suddenly an announcement is made regarding departure of a plane . The Sikh family gets up and departs. Prem and Riya look relieved. They look at each other mischief in their eyes.
The camera wanders about the room. Heaving and panting noises are heard. Clothes are strewn all over the floor and on the sofa. The camera finally comes to rest behind the sofa where Prem and Riya are having sex. They are naked except for the different baggage which are comfortably placed in front of them to get Censor approvals.
Suddenly the door flungs open and in come three of the Sikh family. A Granny , a Mom and a kid. The women shriek to find Prem and Riya in that condition. Prem and Riya shriek too. The Sikhs flee from the room , the Mom tugging at the kid who seems unwilling to leave.

KID
O ki karraha hai Mummy?(What are they doing MOM?)


EXT CROWD SCEENE DAY

Some kind of a riot is going on. Crowds are shouting and lighting bonfires and throwing stones. Police is charging with laathis. A press crew has assembled. We find Riya, age 25-26 in the press group. She has a microphone in her hand and a badge on her chest. She is on air.

RIYA(in the microphone to the camera)
..Reporting for NatT.V. Riya Dasgupta. Kolkata.

CAMERAMAN (o.s.)
Shot O. K.

Suddenly Riya’s mobile rings. She picks it up.

RIYA
Hello.

Cut to Scene of Prem in his house. He is sweaty and dirty indicating a journey. Split screen is used to show Prem and Riya talking over the phone.

PREM
Hi Sweetheart. I’m home.

RIYA (eyes moistening)
You’ve come! I couldn’t be at the airport. I am so tied up here.

PREM
I don’t mind. But where are you. I heard some riots are going on in the city. You are not in one, are you ?

RIYA
No Jaan! I am coming home as soon as possible have to go now.

She puts down the mobile. Notices the intensity of the unrest has increased. She looks on both sides unsure what to do. Suddenly a stone hits her on the forehead. Blood rushes down her brow. She holds her head in pain.

INT PREM’S HOUSE NIGHT

Prem sits restlessly on the couch. Glances at the wall clock. It strikes ten.

MOM (disgusted)
She can’t even come home early one day ! You returned home after over a year and she just does not care.

The door bell rings. Riya enters, her head bandaged. She rushes over to Prem and hugs him tight. Tears flow down her eyes. Prem, shocked to see her like that, touches her brow where it is hurt. He too is crying.

PREM
I knew you were in trouble. I knew that.

Prem’s mom look away. Unmoved.

INT PREM’S COLLEGE CLASSROOM DAY

Prem is addressing a group of students. There are weird diagrams on the board. He is giving a lecture.

INT DIFFERENT CLASSROOM DAY
A group of senior students is ragging a bunch of first-years. We find Riya’s brother in the group of seniors.

INT PREM’S CLASSROOM DAY
The class is over. Prem leaves the room.

INT RIYA’S BROTHERS CLASSROOM DAY

RIYA’S BROTHER
Take of your clothes.

INT COLLEGE CORRIDOOR
Prem is walking down the corridor towards the classroom where the juniors are being ragged.

INT RIYA’S BROTHER’S CLASSROOM.
The junior students are standing in their underwear. They are scared and shamed.

RIYA’S BROTHER (smiling nastily)
Those too.

The students almost cry. They prepare to remove their underwear. But suddenly the door flungs open and Prem comes in. He is completely shocked. He looks at Riya’s brother, who looks petrified.

INT PREM’S OFFICE DAY
Riya’s dad Mr. Dasgupta is sitting in a chair facing Prem. He has a tensed look on his face.

MR. DASGUPTA
He’s still a boy. His whole career depends on you. If you take off the charges the College will keep him. If he is rusticated from here where will he go?

PREM
Do you know what Raju did? He made some junior students strip. If I wouldn’t have accidentally gone there he would have stripped them naked.

MR. DASGUPTA
He’s your brother-in-law.

PREM ( a cold look comes across his face)
He’s a criminal.


INT PREM’S BATHROOM PRESENT DAY DAY

The shower runs down. It falls on Prem’s body. He looks tired . He closes his eyes as if to do away with the exhausion. Suddenly a voice is heard.

PREM’S MOM(o.s.)
Prem?

PREM
Ma!

He grabs the towel and hurries out of the bathroom. Its too late. Ma is standing at the door of his bedroom dumbstruck. On the bed Alisa is shown fast asleep. Prem’s mom is shocked. In tears.

INT RIYA’S HOUSE EARLY MORNING

Mr. Dasgupta sits on the couch reading newspaper. A servant hands him a tea and a few papers.

MR. DASGUPTA
Did Riya come home yesterday? (looking at the paper)What are these?

He opens the envelope and reads the paper. His expression is that of shock and anger.

MR. DASGUPTA
Son-of-a-bitch.

We now see the paper. It is a Divorce paper. Suddenly the phone rings. Mr Dasgupta picks it up. Prem’s Mom’s voice is heard from the otherside.

PREM’S MOM (crying)
Its all my fault. I am so sorry. Riya is a very good girl. I didn’t understand my Bouma while she was still with me. O God..

Mr. Dasgupta puts down the phone perplexed. He glances at his watch and walks over to Riya’s room with the papers and knocks.

RIYA(o.s.)
Come in.

Mr. Dasgupta walks into the room. We find Riya she is older than when we previously saw her. About 30. She looks more mature and tired. But her eyes are still alive.

MR. DASGUPTA
Look what the scoundrel has done now.

Hands her the papers. Riya inspects the papers carefully. Her face is expressionless. Mr. Dasgupta seems frightened. He puts his hands on Riya’s shoulder.

RIYA
Its good Prem sent the papers. Or I would have to file for a divorce myself.

Suddenly the bathroom door flings open and a handsome man clad only in towels steps out.

MAN
What’s up Riya?

RIYA (TO MR. DASGUPTA)
This is Vinay. Vinay Agarwal. We work together. It got late tonight and his house is far off. So I asked him to sleep over.

INT PREM’S HOUSE DRAWING ROOM AFTERNOON

Prem is lying on the couch watching T.V. He seems to have lost all hope in life. He has the cassette of friends in his hand. A movie is running on the T.V. “Indecent proposal”. A background voice is heard which declares Prem and Riya to be divorced.
The phone rings Prem picks it up. The screen is split to show Riya on the other side of the phone.

RIYA
Hello.

PREM
Riya! I was just thinking of you. The telepathy thing still works between us.

RIYA
Why did you do this Prem? Why?

PREM
Why do you ask me questions that you already know the answers to?

RIYA
Still. What pleases you to be hated by those you love?

PREM
Do you hate me?

RIYA
But MA..

PREM
At least she does not hate you anymore. She thinks that she had horribly misunderstood you and she is ashamed. What she doesn’t know is that she has always misunderstood everybody.

RIYA
Don’t hurt her Prem. She loves you. Tell her the truth.

PREM
Does she? Why Riya? Did I tell you anything? Did you tell me anything? But we knew didn’t we?

RIYA(voice breaking)
Being good sucks,Prem. Being good sucks.

PREM
What about Papa? Is he mad with me?

RIYA(smiles sarcastically)
No! (sigh). He thinks you are a noble person. When he saw me with Vinay he believed that you made everything up to save my reputation.

PREM (laughs)
Isn’t it strange? When we wanted to be together our parents could not stand us. And now .. when we have separated.. they think that they had misunderstood their Bouma and Jamaibabu.

RIYA (smiling through tears)
I feel sad sometimes. But I am glad you’re still with me.

The movie running on the T.V. is shown. Sceenes from the film “Indecent Proposal”.


PREM
Do you remember those lines we used to say?

RIYA
From “Indecent Proposal” ?

PREM
Hmm.

RIYA
I love you, Prem.

PREM
Still.

RIYA
Always.

They both kiss on the phone.

FADE IN.

ROLL CREDITS.

TITLE TRACK OF “FRIENDS” :

“I’ll be there for you.. Will you be there for me too.”

City of Angels

City of Angels



Nandita Dasgupta looked out of the window . A thousand faces – boys,girls and their mum and dads- flanked the sides of the runway to bid goodbye to the celebrated writer of the time’s most popular children book – Raj , the wizard boy. But Nandita could hardly see them. It was not that she did not like her fans. Infact she adored them .They were children mostly and it was they who made her rich, famous and successful. But today Nandita’s mind was far removed from those. She was lost in some other world- a world she had never written about in her books. As the plane took to the sky in a blur of faces and settled inside the thick blanket of clouds above, beside and beneath Nandita Dasgupta sank inside her ‘that’ world – a world where existed no hotshot writer of that name but only a hopeless romantic who was affectionately called Nandu, a place which by all accounts was far more beautiful and far more magical than those she created in her stories, a world she could call her own –the world of the real Raj, the Wizard Boy.
Nandita could remember her childhood days more in the arms of Surja Kaku and Rani Aunty than in those of her own parents. Both of Nandita’s parents worked and could hardly give her time.And Surja Kaku and Nandita’s dad were the best of friends. So from the day she had become aware of the world around her Nandita found herself in the loving arms of Rina Auntie beside her own son Raj who as only two months older than her. While Nandita’s mom was outside all day long , Rani took care of both the children nursled them ,caressed them and even suckled them both. Nandita always thought of Surja Kaku and Rani Auntie as her own parents and it was not before three that she would call her own mother ‘Mom’. Still she preserved the word ‘Ma’ to call Rani just as her own son Raj did.
Even before they had learned to speak Raj and Nandita were the best of friends. They were like twins who just did not look alike, were born two months apart and did not share the same set of parents. But they couldnot spend one moment without one another.
They ate together, went to sleep together and even went to loo together. And Rina Auntie had the hell of a time managing the two of them.
Nandita never liked her own parents. Akash and Neelima , inspite of having almost complementary names hardly complemented each other as husband and wife. It was a once-in-a-while incident to see them together and even in the little time they could manage for each other they hardly had time for anything else except fighting. They fought over the trivialest of things –from who should cook dinner to who should spend more time with Nandu. As for Nandu she hated when she had to be at her own house with her parents and shouted when she had to sleep with them at night.
Surjya Kaku and Rani Auntie was at completely different poles with her mom and dad. They fell in love when they were in college and were madly in love with each other since then. While they too did all their work with all attention they had enough time for their children (Oops they had really one child but they considered Nandu their child too.)
And they also managed time for each other for all those sweet nothings and innocent flirting. And Nandita felt that she and Raj were smaller versions of Surjya and Rani.She was not sure what love was or how she loved Raj but she knew that she loved him just as much as Rani Aunty loved Surjya Kaku. Raj was her brother ,friend, toy, and lover all punched into one.
Nandita and Raj could not imagine their lives without each other. So when Nandu had to move to Bombay hell broke down upon them. Raj and Nandita cried incessantly. It was impossible to stop them. And if ever they got tired of their constant howling tears flowed down unabated from their eyes. And when the actual hour of departure arrived even Surjya Kaku and Rani Auntie couldn’t hold back their tears. Those first days in Bombay were the hardest days of her life. For the first few days she did not talk to anyone . She did not eat properly. She cried over the phone when Surjyakaku Rani Auntie and Raj called from Calcutta . Even at that little age Raj tried to console her but she could feel that he was crying on the other side.
Akash and Neelima soon realized how much they had alienated themselves from their daughter through their negligence. In a bid to redeem themselves they tried to give her the maximum time they could manage. But alas it was too late. The place that Nandu had in her heart for her Surjya Kaku, Rani Auntie and especially Raj could not be taken by them.
During the first few years they went to Calcutta thrice every year and for those few days it was not possible to separate Raj and Nandu for even a moment. And Rina and Neelima often bantered that they would not face any problems to marry their children when they grew up.
But as years passed by the frequency of visting Calcutta decreased to once a year, and ultimately once in two years. Nandita talked to Raj over the phone sometimes and she longed to see him although she could always see him when she closed her eyes.
And then that day came. It was summer of 1996.The phone rang at about 8 in the morning when Nandita was about to leave for school.Her dad picked up the phone..
“Hello Akashda,” It was Raj’s Uncle. “ RaniBoudi is serious .Perhaps she’ll not make it . Will you be able to come.”
Everything was set in disarray. Nandita was stunned. She knew that Rani Auntie had cancer and her treatment was going on. But she was too young to understand what ‘cancer’ meant . And this was such a shock. What was Raj doing. He would be .. so.. alone. So … cruelly … terribly … alone.
When they reached Calcutta all was over . They rushed to Surjaya’s apartment from the airport to find Rani dead. She had died two hors ago. Surjya kaku was crying like a child. At one corner Raj was sitting quietly. He was not crying although the othes were urging him to. He had a aghast look on his face. He was watching his father.
Nandita came over to him , tears running down her cheeks. Raj looked up at her.
“How are you.” He asked. Nandita rushed down on him and hugged him to her chest. Raj put his arms round her. She looked at his face. It still wore that perplexed look.
“Have you ever seen Baba like that ?” He asked.
For two weeks they stayed at Calcutta. Then Nandu alone came to Calcuttas for a week after her half-yearly’s.And then again during Dewali. And in Winter they went to Simla. Nandita could still remember those games they had in the snow. Raj always joked over even the saddest of things. “ Wasn’t it good that Ma died . We are being able see each other more often .” He never showed his pain to anybody. But Nandita knew that sometimes he wept in the shower.
When Nandita reached eighth standard the pressure of her studies increased and for three years she couldn’t go to Calcutta. Raj came to Bombay once during this period and stayed for two weeks. But he had his studies too. And he was Surjyakaku’s only companion. So for the better part of these three very long years the telephone was their only means of communication. And at last when Nandita finally went to Calcutta after both had had their secondaries so many things had changed. The ever so pleasant and cheerful Raj had become so grim and gloomy. He seemed so distant and so much more grown-up than his age. Nandita feared she would lose him.
And then something happened . Something so unexpected and yet something so beautiful. It was a the 2nd of April .Hot summer noon. Surjyakaku was in his offices. Raj and Nandita were sitting in the veranda staring at the dusty roads. Nandita was talking incessantly – about how she had spent these days, about all her friends and how worthless they were . She complained that Raj wasn’t behaving the way he did earlier. And then she suddenly looked at Raj. He wasn’t listening to a single word she was saying. Instead he was staring at her as if lost in her face. It seemed so uneasy to see him gaze at her as he had when he had seen the snow at Simla. He raised his hand and touched her hair. A shiver ran down her spine. She looked at his eyes . They seemed so deep. So beautiful and so mysterious. She was scared. Raj touched her cheeks and then suddenly he brought his face closer to hers and kissed her lips. Not one of those kisses they had when they were kids. A real kiss. A long and passionate kiss. It was such a surprise but what could Nandu not give for such a surprise. She closed her eyes in delight. Joy and fear, excitement and amazement she felt at the same time. It went on and on like in one of those mushy sixty’s movies . Tears ran down her eyes. And Raj stopped.
“ Have I done anything wrong ?” He asked as if he had done some heanous crime the colour vanishing from his face . There were tears in his eyes. “I thought you’d like it.” Nandita smiled at him and pressed her lip onto his . The colour came back to his face. He closed his eyes in relief.
Soon they were sitting on the bed unclothing each other. As they unbuttoned each other and took off every item of clothing from each others body a chill of excitement ran through their veins. The breathing became slow and the hair on the back of their necks began to stand. Soon they were sitting completely naked facing each other and staring at each other in amazement. They had been naked before each other when they were kids but this was just so different. The were young adults now. Two young people with two very tender and attractive bodies. They felt hot and cold at the same time and their legs were shaky . Those wonderful changes that had happened to their bodies since they were children were incredible. They touched each other. And soon were lying face to face in each others arms.so very close that they could feel the warmth of each others breath .Their hearts pressed on to each other through the hardness and faltness of his chest and the softness and roundness of her breasts. As they moved closer and closer to each other the individual beatings of their hearts merged into one unified rhythm .Down below their maiden sex organs were struggling for freedom as Raj’s erection kept growing and pushing onto Nandita’s virgin delta of venus and finally sank deep inside her. Ecstasy , fear, joy, adventure, mischief –there was not one word that could describe the feelings they had then. When they lost their virginity at such a tender age of sixteen.
Those first days are always the best. When you always search for an opportunity to touch your lover, to be alone with him/her or to share a kiss. Romantic yes, erotic of course but more than that it’s a truant –like a naughty schoolboy bunking classes for the first time or a discovery – a discovery of a whole new sensation that had hitherto lied hidden from their knowledge and also the sheer excitement of doing something that was like stepping beyond a line, the moto being that Westlife song-
Rules are made to be broken,
Nothing ventured nothing gained.
But above all it was a feeling of belonging. Belonging to someone you love. Someone you can call your own. Someone to share everything with. Someone to whom there would be no hiding , no shame, no bondages to speak out your heart. And the feeling of not being alone in the universe.
That summer was wonderful but good things don’t last long.Soon it was time for another long separation. They were in standard eleven.For two long years they did not see one another.
Nandita could still remember the day she first met Manav. It was during Raj’s first year in college .Raj had taken admission in an Engineering College in Calcutta but Nandu was to go to London to gradute in creative writing.(Proving the fact that the time that her parenents had not shared with her in her childhood were not without an outcome) . She was to go next year. And before that she came to Calcutta to spend the rest of the days there. Manav was Raj’s classmate . And he was invited to Raj’s birthday along with a few others.
Nandita had never seen a guy so handsome. He was a bit of a flirt But that added to his charm. And boy, he had charisma. Raj was sweet but Manav was out and out beautiful. There was something in him that could make every girl’s heart drool in pain. He was your very own neighborhood Jude Law. Nandita was happy that she was going away for she knew she could not trust her heart when this man was around.
Yes he was a man she heard. And that he often teased Raj for being girly. Nandita got so angry when Raj told this things when he wrote to her in London the first time.
“You remember what Ma used to say.” She wrote back. “ It is not how one talks or walks that makes a man. A man is a man if he has the strength of will and character and the courage to sacrifice his own needs over those of others. Manav may be a man who can sweep a girl off her feet but you are the one who can make someone feel like she is an angel.” Raj was so grateful to her for this comment.
What is the greatest wonder in the world. Yuddhishthir would have given you the wrong answer. All those crap in the Mahabharat about life, death and cooking pots - that wasn’t true. The greatest wonder in this world is perhaps why people like each other. Raj and Manav went on to become great friends. This was very surprising because not only they were so different from each other but Manav had been a constant pain in the neck for Raj during his first year in college. When Nandu heard this not only was she surprised but a hint of jealousy crept into her heart as she realized that she was no longer Raj’s only friend. She now had to share her best friend with someone else. But there was a still greater surprise to follow.
That winter Nandu had come to Calcutta to be with her Teddy Bear ( that’s Raj without a saying). And there she was sitting with him in his balcony where he had first kissed him. She was pulling his hair, slipping her hands into his almost unbuttoned shirt
But Raj was not in himself . Something was bothering him. He seemed tortured .From inside.
“What’s wrong Raj ?” Nandu asked. Raj didn’t answer. He looked down to his feet.
Nandu became impatient. She slapped him gently on the face. “ Can’t you tell me what’s wrong . Am I not your best friend anymore.” Her voice ached a little as she spoke.
Raj placed his hand on her lips. “ Never say such a thing again. You are the greatest thing I could ever have in my life. You are an Angel who has always given me hope in the depths of despair. But ... I am … I am just so confused. Don’t want to hurt you.”
Nandita stared at him. “ Don’t know what’s wrong and what’s right ”, he continued. “ I love you Nandu and nothing else can give me more pleasure than to lie in your arms forever. But wasn’t love about giving and not just receiving, wasn’t it about selfless serving – self denial , putting happiness of someone who needs you before your own happiness. Nandu don’t get me wrong I am so grateful to you … grateful for everything you have done . There’s no way I can repay you. Nor do I want to. I want to be in your debt for that always. You’ve taught me to love.”
Nandita waited for the worse. “ I have had sex with Manav ,” he said. Nandita could not believe her ears. “ He might seem a happy-go-lucky playboy most unlikely to be a homosexual on the outside but that’s the farthest from what he is. He is one tiny little child wanting to flee from reality, more horribly insecure than I had ever been . And he needs me just as I needed you . And I want to be you Nandu .”
Nandu felt that her heart should break at that moment or tears should flow unabated from her eyes. But nothing of that sort happened. Instead she managed to force in a smile. No doubt she was sad but somewhere in her heart she loved Raj more. She kissed him on his lips. “ You can never be wrong .” Tears came down their eyes as they embraced each other to their hearts.
She had never seen this side of Manav. He was not smiling. There was a sheepish look on his face . He could not meet her eyes and for a long time he could not bring himself to talk. “ You must be an angel to give up the greatest thing in your life like that for me. And I am such a cheap scoundrel to take it from you. I am not even ashamed of what I am doing. But that’s in the genes I suppose. So good I look on the outside and so ugly I am inside. Rotten as hell. Flirt, playboy, homosexual, love-stealer – what else.” He winced in pain as he was said this.But he couldn’t cry. “ I wish I could be like you or Raj. But I can never be like that I suppose.”
Nandita kept quiet for a moment. Then she reached out and kissed him on the cheek. “If Raj loves you you can’t be half that bad. Trust him this much at least”.She could never forget the look Manav gave her that day. She knew this man will never hurt Raj…ever.
That was seven years ago. Nandita was no longer Nandu. She was one of the most popular childrens’ writer in England . Her Raj the Whizard boy was the gerates success in the past decade. It goes beyond saying that this Raj was not anyone different from her real Raj. Raj has been living with Manav. Most people do not know about their relationship. Thinks they are just friends. Surjyakaku knows of course. He did not oppose his son’s relationship with a man. He said that someone who has ever been in true love can never look with disgust at someone elses interpretation of love. Manav’s family however did not agree with his homosexuality. He has no connection with them now.
Through a crowd of thousand faces at the Calcutta Airport Nandita Dasgupta finally reached the Maruti Zen that had been awaiting her. She headed straight away for the Phoenix General Nursing Home .Raj was admitted there . He had cancer like his mother.
Nandita could not recognize Manav when she saw him. Was this the same man who had reminded her of Jude Law when she first saw him? He was thin as a rake. His face had caved in . There was an untidy mass of hair on his head and there were dark spots around his once beautiful eyes which were now sunken deep into their sockets. His face had not been shaved for weeks.
Raj was still his usual jubilant self. He seemed happy and content .He cracked a lot of jokes. And even with tears in her eyes Nandu could not help smiling. “Have you seen Manav ?” he asked. “ Doesn’t he remind you of Kumarsambahavam. The beautiful and delicate Parvati maintained penace for Lord Shiva. It took toll of her body . She became weak and ugly. Her physical beauty diminished but the beauty of her soul only sprouted its petals more wide.”
“I sometimes wonder you know,” he told her when they were alone . “ What good have I done to receive so much love and joy. Baba, Ma, You , Manav. How did I get to know all the best persons in this world. Why was I blessed with all the angels.”
Nandita couldnot hold her any longer. She broke down in tears. “ Don’t worry Nandu. I will always be there even when I am gone. The only thing that pains me is Baba. He won’t be able to take this. But I know that my worries are useless. With you and Manav to look after him even he will get over his sorrow. Manav will look after him and you will look after them both .”
Raj died in the middle of one night that summer. Nandu and Manav cried a lot. But Surjya did not cry just as Raj had not cried when his mother had died. Infact Surya did not utter one word since he came home after cremating his son. There was nothing left for him to say. But Manav and Nandu would not leave him for one moment. They wanted him to cry for crying eases the pain a lot. But there was no result. There was not a tear left in his eyes.
One night Nandu and Manav were sitting in the living room discussing about their lives. Eventually they started talking about Surjyakaku. Nandu said how Suryakaku and Rani Auntie had loved her as a child . Manav said he had never known what a father was like until he met Surjyakaku. “ But what’s happened to him now” .He broke down like a child. “ Will I never be able to bring him back” .He cried like a little girl. Nandita tried to comfort him but she could not hold back her own tears. But then she feld a gentle hand on her head. It was Surjyakau. Manav looked up wiping his tears.
“Don’t worry about me. I lost only one child. I still have two.”
Nandita was to fly to London. She was sitting in the plane at the airport. Both Surjyakaku and Manav had gone there to bid her farewell. They both looked so similar.
After Rani Auntie’s death Suryakaku had dedicated his life for Raj. Manav had done the same thing for him. Love was a cyclic process. The love she had received from Surjyakaku and Rani Auntie , Nandita had given it to Raj and Raj had given that love to Manav. And here was Manav returning that love to Surjyakaku. She ought to have been sad. But Nandu could not help smiling. It was the same smile that Raj had on his face when he died. A smile filled with joy and hope , a smile filled with gratitude towards the Creator for creating so much beauty in this world. Nandita Dasgupta wore such a smile as she bade farewell to the City of Angels.